Last week I felt I was getting depressed.  Nothing was wrong in my life, and nothing was right either.  I didn’t know what was wrong.  I just knew how I felt. 

I could feel my energy go down, when I got home from work, all I wanted to do was sleep.  I didn’t have any energy.  I was totally bored.  I could feel my confidence seeping away, things I normally wouldn’t think about doing, I now hesitated.  If I allowed myself, I could spiral down into a depression.

During the week, I used the weapons in my arsenal (I call them weapons, because sometimes keeping my self-esteem and confidence up can feel like a battle).  I did the Sedona Method, and EFT.  Though, they worked for the moment, my sad feeling would return.

On Saturday, as I was having my morning coffee, I took out my journal.  I realized it had been over a week since I had written.  So I decided to write about how I was feeling.  As I was writing, I could justify every feeling I had, AND if I allowed, I could go deeper and deeper into the rabbit hole of hurt, anger and depression. 

Then, it hit me!  It’s a choice.  I had a choice.  I could stay with these non-happy feelings, or I could choose to be happy.  After all, it is all a state of mind.  So this is what I wrote. Do I want to be happy? Yes!  What can I do? I can take my mind off of my problems and focus on something else.  Like what? I listed the things I could do that would keep my mind occupied and start feeling good about me.  So, I went shopping for some cloths that I needed.  I started my fall cleaning.  I worked outside.  I took my dog for a long walk, and enjoyed the beautiful weather.  By Sunday late afternoon, I felt better.  I had a renewed determination, and sense of focus…  Little things made me laugh.  I was happy!

Monday morning, as I was driving to work, I gave my appreciation for all that I have.  And for the teachers that have come into my life and taught me how to live my life my way. 

You too, can have happiness, self-confidence and self-esteem.  Just change your mind, and decide to have them. 

It’s your choice, what do you choose?

To Your Success!

Diana

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