Last week I had a meeting with strangers and I showed up as myself.  Showing up as me means, I was confident and gave my opinions, theories and insight calmly, and confidently.  I surprised myself, because in the past, when I was with strangers and would start to talk, my heart would start to beat fast, my hands would start to sweat, and I would forget what I wanted to say, or fumble on my words.  I’ve improved over the years, and my symptoms have lessens, however, the fast beating of my heart, the dry mouth and the scared feeling never really left until this meeting.  This time, I experienced calm and confidence. I showed up to that meeting happy and confident, because I was confident.  I received a pleasant insight about me.  I saw, heard and felt my intelligence.  All my years of experience came together.  I felt like an actor or athlete when all your training comes together with ease and grace. I felt alive!

What I realized, I had let go of my fears.  My fear of being wrong, my wanting approval, and validation. My fear of not being able to offer something of value.  I let go of the fear of being judged.  Of “losing my job” because I couldn’t perform.  I let go of my fear of being less then.  I let go of my fear of being wrong.  What I did was show up as me, with my personality, my experience and my perception of the situation.  I didn’t get hurt if they said my idea wasn’t what they were looking for.  I didn’t get crushed if I didn’t hear “job well done Diane”.  I didn’t get discouraged if they didn’t ask for more feedback.  I wasn’t afraid to disagree with their observations.  I truly came into the meeting as me, confident, and I walked away feeling better about myself.

I am hear to tell you, YOU too can have the same experience.  I see it as the Wizard of Oz.  The journey to self-confidence and self-esteem is like the yellow brick road.  The house falling on the wicked witch symbolized eliminating your past influences, and starting on your new journey.  The yellow brick road is that journey, promise of you dreams fulfillment.  Along the way, you pick up the scarecrow and you become aware of the thoughts going through you head.  Then you pick up the Tin Man, and you start forgiving and loving yourself.  Then you pick up the Lion, and your courage, and determination increase.  All the while on your journey, the Wicked Witch of the East, or your destructive, fearful, self is trying to stop you from succeeding.  With these three companions – insight, love and courage you make it to the Emerald City.  The Emerald city leads you home to your true self.

Follow the yellow brick road, follow the yellow brick road, follow, follow, follow, follow, follow the yellow brick road.  Your off to become your confident self, in the Wonderful World of YOU.

To Your Success!

Diana

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